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Tuesday, August 23, 2005 6:26 am
BUT I THOUGHT WE'RE FRIENDS? [Rock Ear Musik: Blog Song] [Mood:  ]Dear friend, I'm sorry you don't think much of me as your good buddy. It's good to know the truth after all of these years. I'm glad that you found someone who actually care for you. [Smile] The real truth is, your pride is hurt. After what had happened, doesn't it strike you as being a tad unfair? Or dare I say... immature? The idea that everyone here keep on sneering at you shows how self-obssesed you have become. Let me tell you the truth - yet another truth - , you will never be what you want to be, simply because, you have no respect for the human heart. You want constant adulation without making any effort to earn it. I opened up my whole life for you. Secrets, boyfriends, relationships, crushes, how I feel. I thought you are someone I could rely on. Someone I could trust. Someone I should respect. I thought we were friends? No. My hatred for you is not at its zenith. Not yet. You know, I try to like you, but I just can't. Futhermore, it was you who started all this. So what's with the big melodrama? Now that I've opened the floodgates, I need to let my resentment rush and roar. I know I'm not perfect. But at least, I'm a human. At least I reach out for people - in my lazy, wastrel, bitcy way. At least I have respect to the human heart. Whereas you, at the first whiff of imperfection, you reject everyone who love you best. Okay. I stand rejected. Your opinions will be a comfort as I continue this quest. But you see dear friend, I'll validate myself that what you said is wrong because, fortunately.... I have faith in myself. |