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Friday, September 15, 2006 4:43 pm
WELL, HELLO DEPRESSION
If anyone ever asked me to draw a picture of my current situation/life like right now, all I could afford to draw is a girl crying while standing next to a broken glass.
Yes.
That is my situation/life for you guys right now.
But you know? Yesterday I dreamt of us and things were beautiful. The night was calm and I could hear the sound of the waves. But when I woke up this morning, the truth was a slut. Then I realised that I yearn for him so badly.
The question is, do you still care?
I cannot swallow in anymore false amiability that is going around. Because really, the facade is pretty obvious. This fight is already turning me into a feeble and helpless creature on Earth. I tried very hard to divert my attention from this, even for a short period of time but things just don't go the way I want them to be and of course, I failed. Everything somehow left me feeling deflated. I am in a state of mingled dejection, rejection and mortification. Funny how I let paranoia to take control of me so easily.
I wish I had a knife (and the courage).
1 fucking knife to end all this.
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